The lady.

❥I make it thru

2011-02-23T13:48:00.012+08:00

Sorry world. Has been like month I never touched my blog.

Alot of thing need to be update. Things had change and stuff. From a happy marriage to a broken family.

From a girl who need him as much as anything else and now she can stand up and decide things for herself.

As you can see my last post, was as sweet than anyone else.

But it has become a memories to all of us. Wondering where should I actually start now. Start from my marriage, hmmm. Well. It has been tough for me last few month. Quarrel between my... Should i it like this. Erm (ex)mother-in-law and (ex)husband.
How important am I is in the house.

Ho cruel he is. Doesn't wanna mention too. As for now im just waiting for the letter that he wanted to give me for so long. Let bygone be bygone. I guess I really happy now too. I'm home for about 2 month already

. Getting use of everything. Thanks to all my friend who was there for me.

Really a big thanks to all of you. No matter what, you all just keep me accompanied.

One more to thanks. Specially for you. THANKS !

You are just there no matter what. When i break down crying you will be there.

Even when im having moodswing, you just stand there and let me scold.

Xie xie ni.
Recently, working for my biao jie at her office. Office hour. Monday to Friday 9 to 6. Althought is like ****ing bored. But the timing just end at the right time. Drinking here and there. Will be uploading photo with all my sayang. Sorry, as im inthe office right now unable to upload all or you can just look thru my fackbook which is on the side. Thanks pal. Yup, will be updating more offer and catch up with you guy. Kindly help me click on my nuffnang ads too. I love all of you ! I swear !

♥ Im really happy.

2010-11-05T21:24:00.004+08:00

Nothing much, keep smiling to myself.

Cause I'm happy.

Am i mad?

Feels that i really have a place in your heart.

HHEHEHE!

Home. Play with my web cam again(:

Tomorrow serene wedding dinner.

What to wear?

Bikini?

MAD !?!

Hereby. Congrats to her and lin kun.

Will upload alot of photo!

Here comes the playful me(:

Muacks !

"C"

"M"

CM= come to me. HAHAHAHAHA !

For my lovely you.

Video especially for you my dear.
Meeting u was fate,becoming your friend was choice,

but falling in love with u was totally out of my CONTROL!

I LOVE YOU!

TATA, BACK FOR BLOGGING TOMORROW!

♥ Sarang heyo ;

2010-11-04T23:19:00.006+08:00

♡ You are always on my mind and the only time your not is when im in your arms.

♡ IF I SAID I LOVE YOU WOULD YOU LOVE ME.. IF I SAID I WANT TO BE WITH YOU WOULD YOU ACCEPT ME INTO YOUR LIFE..IF I LOOK INTO YOUR EYES WOULD YOU LIE TO ME...IF YOU ARE DYING WOULD YOU LET ME DIE WITH YOU...IF THIS MEAN A LOT TO ME WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH LOV

♡ Of all the pleasures life can bring LOVE is the sweetest thing.

02/11Working in woodland the other day.

Serene, qiming ang qm's gf came down and look for me.

mummy was there too to see how's my work.

5min later, saw jiang si, vivien and james.

Hahahahs, Eat a little and went smoking together.

7.15 saw poh teng and ah 7 , still smoking again.

Miss the life there. Many friend. Hometown.

Finish Work, Meeted ys awhile, SMOKE, ahd went back home.

Thanks shing ying, I have a wonderful night. Never regret till now.

Once i think of it i will still smile. Wink*

03/11 Working at bishan, lovely morning (: Too tired so when in treatment room to

sleep for a while. Opps. Afterwork Shing's come find me with her boyfriend.

Envy. She really had a wonderful boyfriend, Cherish alright.

Saw Alvin wong, HAHAHAS, talking about the past.

And then Homey.

Alot of thing happen, Where were you?

Sighs.

romance that you needa know.

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Never took picture this few day. Cause have been working.

Will be uploading photo up soon.

This message is specially for you.

I miss you badly, Really badly.

I need yoour hug your kisses urgertly.

There's no Special reason for this msg,

I just wanna steal a single moment out of ur busy life & hope I can make u smile and say:

I Miss U.

Time for bed i guess. Nighty.

♥happy dada

2010-11-01T10:46:00.003+08:00

Morning all ~~ As happy after,

Thanks. Congrat to linda ! hehehe!

ily. you know.

let picture talk?

❥A fake smile can hide a million tears.

2010-10-30T04:31:00.004+08:00

Back, how fucking long i never updated my lovely blog. Back, having the mood to blog.

Well. Picture uploaded. lastest one is right at the bottom.

the older one is at the top. Picture took at shing ying

birthday celebration, drinking session with my babe.

GT 3rd day. BBQ clanmate meeting session and last but not least

WORKING SESSION.

2.30pm now, got to prepare for work soon.

Boring. Boring. Boring.

Lots of thing happen too.

20% happiness 80% sadness.

dosent want to mention.

Anyway, please do help me click on my naffnang ads.

30/10/10 BBQing with them. Lots of fun.

forget about all the trouble(for awhile)

Program tonight? Home again?

Sighs . Ke lian de wo ah.

You.

Thanks for everything.

i love you.

I really need you.

Let the picture do the taking now.

Shing ying birthday.(aaron, jason,shing and me)

Yesterday bbq.GT 3rd day(: (manman)Drinking session. Wink

My nails. New design. For now. Got to change soon.Fish spa!!Pain pain):My secondary school. Went back to take my Nlevel cert.

I miss my school!

Drinking session with my babe. (regina,me and lydia)
When working in newyork _l_ Home ramdom pic.Art and craft at work? HAHAHAS!

Halloween. Got shock my him. But fun.

Working~~Jayden, loveeee you !BBQ .

Got to prepare for work already. Tata. will update again.

❥In reality, people judge you from your actions without knowing the reason behind it.

2010-10-19T13:10:00.005+08:00

Have alot of fun with you (L)

❥ It's not that I don't trust you, I just don't know when you're telling the truth.

2010-10-15T14:42:00.007+08:00

❥Maybe if it was possible for me to hate you, things would have been easier.

2010-10-06T01:14:00.000+08:00

well , will upload photo . work work. as skin care promoter (:. celebrate with jiang si and all (:fun fun.

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2010-09-28T11:41:00.001+08:00

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♥We are different precisely in order to realize our need of one another.

2010-09-14T22:38:00.001+08:00

ღ

Today had just end. Here comes tomrrow.

Many funny things happen today.

Also took picture below.

Meet up at ps for breakfast with regina and manman.

Then went off work straight.

Capture TIKO UNCLE picture also.

HAHAHS !

Hitted our target today.

GRATS !

Have our lunch and also steal some snack and desert to eat.

Guess what, kena caught still.

Oh my goodness.

But who cares.

Gonna wake up at 8am tomorrow again.

Can't believe those uncle, we are just like they're kids

and they treat us like supermodel.

Come down not for exhibition but of US.

Everyone is nicely wear and the 3 of us like... errr .

Monster from another planet?

So far so good, still fun.

Disturb uncle over there and they keep giving us sweet .

Lmao ! Seriously _l_

Last day tomorrow!

Yup, will also upload more.

More funny uncle picture will be upload tomorrow !

Guess i shall let the picture to speak for me(:

Night, world.

ღ

Baby, thanks for being there for me.

Really can feel your love.

So love.

Dont worry wun cheat by uncle there.

Missing you badly always.

Hugs.

I love you more than words.

Right now, i love you very much and i cherish every moment with you!

I love you my boy.

miss miss. MUACKS !

SIDE.

BACK.
The Exhibition.

Doing Survoy.
Favorite. YUM. more more more !

captured by photographer(:

Here comes all the JI KO PEH!

We are working as a survyor but it seem like we are model.

Super star!

HAHAS ! This is the one. Oh my my.

靠近一点 !

Sticking so tighty for?

Wake up your idea man.

Bet he cant be sleeping right.

HAHAHAS ! bad me.

But all of us agreed !

EEEK.

love by LINDA ONG.

♥ Sometimes when you forgive someone, its because you still want them in your life.

2010-09-14T00:54:00.000+08:00

Back. Time now is 1.29am. Fast fast. Gonna wake up for work at 8am tomorrow.
Work work work.Working at Marina bay sand now. Survyor(ML CONSULTANTS). For Global Tronics 2010. With my babe, Regina and manman. Guys there seriously RICH but fucking TI KO!Yucks. Tomorrow with take more picture to upload up. As for today. Really dozing off soon. But i just wanna blog. A word to describe my feeling now. Happy. Don't ask me why. I know myself. That should be all i guess. NEED to sleep. If not you will see a panda walking around marina bay sand! Will of cause continue tomorrow(: Not to worry. World. Night.

You, Baby boy. Listen up!

I LOVE YOU
I MISS YOU
I WANNA HUG YOU TIGHT
I WANNA KISS YOU WHOLE NIGHT
YOU ARE MINE
I AM YOURS
NEVER GONNA LEAVE YOU
YOU WILL NEVER BE REPLACE
YOUR SMILE BRIGHT UP MY LIFE
TILL DEATH MAKE US PART

Cant describe how much you mean to me. Thanks for everything.WE WILL LAST, WE WILL! I need you alot. Dont ever leave me alright. hee. Muacks.

Night baby.

TIAMO.

♥ 我要的快乐很简单, 可是越简单的快乐越难得到.

2010-09-13T00:58:00.001+08:00

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Damn tired now. But just wanna share my day to all before i forget.
Yesterday , When in Malaysia. Shop, eat and also get something for Ah girl
baby boy full month. Is Saturday. Surprisingly the custom is smooth.
Change money (...) Eat. We order crabby and more picture uploaded below.
I swear! i will never eat there in the afternoon.
Is fucking hot and warm.
Argh!
Was so full, Then off we went to Holiday Inn Plaza.
SHOPPING !
Got my cap and blah blah blah. Picture right at the bottom(:
And also stuff for elis baby boy.
After everything, out of Malaysia.
Went Elis there immediately, Hass ~
Opps.
I can't really recognized her.
Don't worry, She will get back to shape soon(:
Continue our eating there!
YUM YUM.
BBQ and Buffet.
(...)
Played blackjack while waiting for them to have the
cake cut ceremony.
Finish everything planed to play LAN.
In the end. Marjong.
Head back home.
.
As for today. Nothing much. Waited for his message but
DISAPPOINTMENT.
Evening went to eat Sakae. Picture uploaded below too.
And back home.
Trying to get to sleep, but can't. Hee, guess i shall try again ya.
Anyway to all reader.
Nuffnang ads beside, please kindly help me to click (:
Thank you very much.
.
.
You You You.
I wonder wonder wonder.
Love me and come back to me.
Days without you, i will only be seeing black and white
Prabu.

fOR aLFROD.

iDOIT FACE !

tODAY DINNER(:

stuff from malaysia.

Night to all and you. Baby.

♥ Shud have trusted you.

2010-09-10T23:50:00.000+08:00

Back from movie. Ready to blog. Quick and fast cause gonna wake up early tomorrow and now the time is 12plus going to 1. Yup.
Few days back went in Malaysia with Ah an and HO EH to eat and also bought some dise. Fun.

Pictures uploaded.(Below)

Movie today at Plaza Sing with Freddy, Chris and HO EH.

Pictures upladed too.(Below)

Before movie also went billard. Haas~

Chris camera shy, so never took much picture of them.

As for tomorrow, Malaysia again.

Have to wake up early as we have to come out early to go for

Elis baby boy full month.

Hereby, Girl . Congrats ! Alford and jayden can be very good friend(:

Can't wait to see the both of you, haas. And Mambo too.

Yup. That all for now.

Need to wash up and sleep.

You.

Woke up this morning. Realise.

Lose, Confuse and Regret.

Always trying to show you the

brave side of me.

Baby, i miss you.

I need you.

Please don't leave me.

NIGHT.

Billard. (CHRIS) shy.

Movie. My love. Cheesy hotdog.

Smoking after movie at carpark.

Malaysia trip.

BAO YU MIAN! Really nice. Shud give it a try.

yummy.

Waiting. Nighty all.

♥ Counting down till the day you are back.

2010-09-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

~♥~

Got alot to write , so where shall i start. Umms, from my nails,

done my nails few days back. Super in love with it.

Baby and me. SICK. But everything was fine now.

So not to worries guys(:

4/9 Out for movie with Shing ying, Aaron and Jason.

We watched Haunted Changi. Very lame show.

But just don't know why Shing ying and me can scare till that way that

we are holding each other and hiding behind my jacket. HAHAS !

Slack at mac decide where to go next. Lots of place we mention.

In the end. LOLLS . Home sweet home.

Took picture and Uploaded.(Below)

5/9 Out for movies again. Shing ying, Aaron, Jupiter, Jackson and Jason.

We watched Expend (M18)

show not bad.

They check out IC luckily Shing yings not there. Haas~

Today, Staying at home and rot.

Going Malaysia later on.

Yippee!

Eat! Miss the food. Got to prepare rest soon.

Lam shing ying! Í'm still waiting gor your calls.

And always waiting for my love one to call(:

~♥~

My baby boy. Missing you real bad.

Days without you, really SUCKS ttm.

Days without me, please remember to eat and drink more water

and not letting me to worry.

And of cause, remember to miss me !

Stop making me angry k.

In love with you deeply.

Seriously.

Till death makes us part.

Nothing can seperate us.

I LOVE YOU ILOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!

x 1000000000000000000000000000000

Waiting for baby boy.

24/7 for you only

A ring away boy.

LOVESSSSSSS.

Captured at amk hub.
Shing ying, arron, jason and me !

malaysia here i come!

❥Love is like a fire, we know it hurt and burns and yet we still touch it willingly.

2010-08-23T22:54:00.000+08:00

Back to Venturist. Help out. Photo uploaded. I am fucking tired. -.- !

At last, leave taka already. Will sure miss the people there.

21/08- Taka full shift. (thanks for coming down boy.)

22/08 - After taka when for steamboat and fusion for some billiard.

Thanks Joseph(daddy) for his bloody big month making fun of me thru out.

LOL.

Watching TV right now. Am happy that tomorrow i can sleep as much as i want. Yuppie!

Tomorrow plan, you know i know(:

The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything they have.

And that is what i always do.

Specially for you.

I hope you know what i want.

Just want a simple life simple love.

Simple you and simple me.

So close yet so far.

Gonna change my temper first.

As i promised to.

Im a human, i feel sad too.

Just wanna let you know.

How much you are important to me.

You bright up my day and life.

Just rmb this.

I will always be there for you,

no matter what.

I will never let you go.

My dear boy.

I LOVE YOU TRULY MADLY DEEPLY.

NIGHT~Y .

❥Fairy tales is never real. ℒℴvℯ yℴu

2010-08-18T00:36:00.000+08:00

Back. Took photo at taka, so faster upload. ... UPLOADED!

Yup, another day . Went to boat quay yesterday.

okays, doesn't want to mention much. Argh, Yup. But i really really enjoy myself.

Surprisingly, Today I'm early to work. Got a real bad mood swing after

hearing some awful thing which i dont know isit real. But i choose to believe you.

I trust you, dont you lie to me alright.

Um, explained, accepted.

Finish work then went (TOH TOH TOH) to eat.

Got back home. And started facebook and blog. Till now.

Boring uh? Yup, Anyway, Uploaded some old picture. (Blue Blazze)

Well, got to said, i really miss it alot.

Drink, play, dance and cheat.

HAHAHS. Yup. Guess that will be all.

Got to sleep. Tata xD

♥

TO: YOU.

Boy, missing you real bad whenever you are not around.

Every one min just like 1 hour.

I know you work really hard,

But please remember a silly girl is at there waiting for your msg or call.

Just a simple word from you. Is more than enough.

etc, you eaten? Smile.

Little action can really brighten my day.

I want to be your only one. one and only me.

Cant get you outta my head.

I (D) you, boy.

Crazy devoted loving a crazy old man.ℒℴvℯ yℴu

IMY,ILY.

❥'M so happy(:

2010-08-16T00:34:00.000+08:00

So much too write. Where shall i start. Still working at taka. yup. Know more and more wired people. HAHAS ! But happy ... ahh. I knew myself . hahahs. Goh Chun Leng bastard me again. Argh! Anw, got new phone already ! Blackberry, i love my phone! Dont want to loose it again . Never never never. I miss Lam shing ying alot nah. Miss lots of ppl. To all my friend out there. Im super duper sorry that i neglecting you all. Hmm. After this fair will be back with you all(: !

1 last week to go. Counting down. Woot, No more worries. Found my love. Hees , as happy as ever.

YOU! Just want to let you know, i really (D) you

don't you leave me. You understand?

hahas, stupid crazy old man.

Thanks seriously. I found the smile and laughter i lost

for so long. Because of you? hees .

Well, guess i need to go to bed too. Dont want to wake up and see a panda in the mirror. GOSH , and that will be me. Love a person, must love her/his everything . And here i wanna said 1 more time . I LOVE YOU(:

❥All we wish for is only a simple life.

2010-08-02T00:02:00.000+08:00

World world world. Back. (: quick and fast, well. Done my manicure not long. Captured it. Got to said, Man, i really love it alot. Like it like me. Stopped working my 5 and 8 steps and went working at taka(craziest toy fair) for about 2 1/2 weeks and was intro by devyn which he actually work the first day and leave me alone there the rest of the week. -.-'' Luckily i get to know lots of friends there. And hereby , thanks shing ying. For accompanying me thru out. Love her. Had lots of fun there and bet you can never imagine. Hmm, anw. I lost my iphone): grr. Dosen't want to mention anymore. Freak. I miss chicken ball, okays. Is so random. Is monday again. Blue blue blue. Please a blissful monday. Tomorrow, back to my 5 and 8 step, only tomorrow. Having our night division. OOHS. Herny Liew, Happy birthday to you. shall see you later on. Laughs.
lsz, last chance for you. Lie. You start the first lie, you have to have a second lie to cover. Hope everyone understand(: yup. Loaded some photo with webcam again, with my beautiful nails. Alright, heading to bed. Night, world.

P.S .

♥ Just feel like a fool.

2010-07-04T03:11:00.000+08:00

Hey, to all my reader. I damn sorry ! I swear, for not blogging for so long. Due to my work. Grr, seriously is ****ing tired. Even now, I'm using iPhone to blog. Just a simple one as is really late now and tomorrow I'm still having wedding dinner. And now is already 3.30am. Well, hereby to congrats Benny and Patricia for their marriage. Sincerely bless by me(: BAI TOU DAO LAO. Back from movie, around 12plus, yup. Watched "Day and Knight" seriously, two tumbs up. Is a really great show. Funny, exciting, romatic love story. the kind of fear of loss and sence of urgency attitude and feeling is just there. Hahas! hmmm...

As for the title, fool. (; Dosen't want to mention it. An advise to all, don't give in all. People are greedy, they will only take it for grated. Alright, to be fair, I'll say mostly. haas ~ agree ? yawn, oh no, my eye are closing, I will just stop here first. alright, quick quick(: Goodnight reader's, goodnight world, Miss-Love-Bless.

❥What a day.

2010-04-15T23:25:00.000+08:00

Hi world. Just finish video call with Tata ong. She went down to eat, continue later(:

Went kk for check up today, everything was fine.

Have the CERVICAL PAP SMEAR check is on lower part of my body.

Well, actually is kind of weird. Hahahs.

Then went home to prepare to have dinner.

My mother-in-law... erm, something happen. And actually pissed us off.

Surprising, Jayson went back home with my milky bar.

Omg, love you dear. remember what you had promise in the hospital and the other

night went we are going to bed okay?

Hmm, tomorrow going boat quay!! yeah.

Is sneaky's birthday. Celebrating at ghost's girlfiend pub.

Might not be able to blog tomorrow.

Mmm, Mother-in-law is on MC tomorrow.

Hope everything will be fine and go peacefully.

Please, to all. Don't spoil my lovely day tomorrow(:

That's it. Will update soon. Night all~

TO: JAYSON HO

Hey, thanks for everthing you have done okays. I really see you trying to understand me.

Things within mummy and I. Hereby, just wanna tell you.

Bao bei, I LOVE YOU.

Avoid, avoid, avoid.
Hear✖
See✖
Speak✖

Trying to ti gong, and as if i'm listerning. But inside of me...
Please! Stop naggy.

Trying not to see what's happening right now.
Please! Don't get me involve.

Trying to keep my mouth SHUT.
Please! Don't make to have a fight with you.

Yup.

❥seriously entertain me !

2010-04-15T01:36:00.001+08:00

Hello~~ Nothing much to blog. Dear is on MC today. So we stayed at home. Guess what, he played his BLACKSHOT once again. LOLLS. So, edit a picture. Come on, kill me baby(: Played with my webcam again. Gosh, see I'm really damn bored alright. Yup, that's for today(: jayson is still waiting for me to sleep. Goodnight world.

❥simply happy

2010-04-12T22:57:00.000+08:00

Whey ~ blogging time. Well, jayson bought me a netbook from suntec.

Just got it few hour ago.

And is PINK in colour (LG) (:

Baby jayden has been a good boy today.

Shitted in the morning and it smell really awful.

Went to find Tata ong and her baby. She is damn cute and adorable.

Erm, i mean xy.

Gossip here and there. Teaching HOW to avoid quarrel with mother-in-law. LMAO.

Firstly, keep your mouth shut to stop her from talking.

Secondly, Never argue back. To prevent you and your husband from quarrel.

Thirdly, which Tata ong teach me. Por her or say somthing sarcastic(:

Agree?

Took some photo on webcam.

❥(: Noboby understand.

2010-04-08T22:58:00.000+08:00

Back, sorry for not blogging for so long. Gosh, okays. Is damn long. Kinda miss those day when me and him just started. Now, stress stress stress. Quarrel coming up one by one. Drifting us further and further. I want you to be by my side. Just like how others treat they are wife. I wanted to help out, and things went upside down. Who are you now? The man i love has gone? Day by day, you are changing. Not dare to say, cause i know what will happen in the end. Today, you told me something which makes me really disappointed, Din't want to mention here. Totally broke down when i heard it. Who can i say this to? Friends? And let them laugh at me. Sometimes i wanted to give up, and let the time to heal the pain. I knew i can do it, but i can't bare to leave you. I want to walk thou the path with you which i promise to. Be by your side when you are down

♥ Endless war.

2010-02-12T15:51:00.000+08:00

Sighs . Firstly Happy chinese new year and Happy valentine day to all.

My feeling right now is worst then ever. He is coming to collect his stuff right now.

I know the answer from him later on wun turn out to be good.

I just want a last hug for my valentine day.

All i can do is only cry. I just can't stop thinking.

Wei shen men ni jiu bu ke i rang wo ne? Every of your word mean alot to me.

And the awful word you give me really make feel...

Why can't you change your attitude for me?

I really meant so nothing to you ma? How hurt isit when you shouted at me, do you understand how it'feels like? Well, i guess you dont.

If not you wun hurt me times and times. Staying home for new year.

I will go speechless when relative asking where's my husband and so. Friends who want to contact me. Give me a tag ba.

Phoneless and i don't wanna touch facebook for now. Seriously moodless.

♥ YU GUO TIAN QING.

2010-02-05T19:33:00.000+08:00

LOLLS ! Damn bored. Waiting for dear to come home.
I miss him badly. Glad that everything's went fine already.
Want to blog more offer. Haas~ The mood is there(:
Well , nothing much happen today.
Talk on phone with renata in the afternoon.
Abit of misunderstanding with dear. But everything was fine.
Not to worry. He come pei me for lunch.
Sweet(: Lolls. Do some squeezing for dear =x
Uh uh~ Don't think dirty. And he off to work again.
No more princess, no more prince.
Only king and queen.
Litter Prince coming out soon in in around 2 weeks time.
HAHAS, Although there is no fairytales.
But i always hope for a happy ending.
That's all.

♥ Sighs

2010-02-04T13:41:00.001+08:00

Well , all i can say is , fully disappointed. Everytime we quarrel ending is always like this. Sick and tired of it. He has changed. To someone i can't recognized. He going drink, im staying home crying again. Forever going to be like this ma? It was you who asked me not to asked . And what ? Do I deserve it?

❥(: im glad you are around, boy.

2010-01-21T15:56:00.000+08:00

Hello to all. Damn long never blog already. Will update more photo soon. Just back home not long from iluma. Pei dear going training. Played audition with renata. Haas~ Damn long never play already. Fun. Well, have been doing the same thing past few day, Rot at home and wait for dear to finish work. Catch most of the lastest movie too. As for jayson and I, we get to give in more to each other. Less quarrel (: He still the same. BLACKSHOT! haas. Time flies, date is getting nearer and nearer. Next month is my turn. Kind of scare. Gosh - hope everything went fine.

DEAR .

Although you are not going in with me. But i know you will fully surpport me outside.

Thanks for being there. Thanks for the happiness you

had given me. Really happy.
I hope you too. We may quarrel at times, but the love for you will never change. Your love makes me get stronger.
Your kisses. Your hug.

Every morning i wake up, First thing i saw was you. Zhen de hen xin fu.

Everynight you hug me to sleep. Pampered me when i'm down.

You always know when im down when i feel sorrow. You will always try to be there for me

even if you unable to. Dear, i love you. And i really do.

♥actual day

2009-12-03T18:29:00.000+08:00

actual day(: makeup.

Show picture jiu hao le.

♥m-i-l birthday.

2009-11-27T14:11:00.000+08:00

SUPER DAMN SORRY. For not blogging. Anw, today is my mother-in-law birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!! Going tao's cafe of dinner. Bought her a bag(: hope she like it. heehs. Ah an preparing cake for her. wooh. I love her. Anw, Jayson, my laogong. i miss you badly seriously. I'm sorry, for what had happen i bet you know what im talking about uh. yeepee! 1 year soon le. That's fast. Dear, your blog hor... i dont feel any sweet sweet de leah. love laopo also dont have ah! lolls. For me. Same, jayden is 6 month 1 week old already. papa, mama waiting for you oh. HAHAHAS. Alright, got to prepare soon. will update picture by tomorrow. i GUESS [=

❥Long post

2009-10-21T11:16:00.000+08:00

Hello, friend. Not blogging for long as i'm busy. Lots of thing happen. Birthday, marriage and outing. Picture and video will update. Anw, Happy Birthday to Joseph(daddy), Ah Siao, Val and Jun Wei. Okays, lets me post bit by bit. Dear bought me N97. Love you lots! We will be going Malaysia for shopping. He promised. Well, cant remember much. So post abit of yesterday thingy. Went marina barrage to celebrate Jun Wei's birthday. Dear drove me there and also acc me. So sweet. Okays then(...) home sweet home. Before going to sleep i was kinda hungry. So intend to go down shop and save buy cup noodles.(super) But it was all sole out. So no choice but he insist to buy for me and asked me to wait for him home. Of cause pei Lao gong ma, and also got afew(many)raindrops. Before reaching 7-11. Nearby. Then raining cats and dogs. how romantic. You all cant imagine JAYSON HO; laogong. I don't like your very last post huh. Special thanks to, Yi Qian, Grace, Sherlyn, Sze kuan, June, Sham theng, Wei hoon and Jie ying. And also to Jayson's brother & kuo hao for video taking. Make up artsier, Pei Fen also winky for taking photo thru out. Do extension on nail for wedding and also some photo on the night before the day BIG day.

♥ Prawning.

2009-09-25T16:49:00.001+08:00

Lalalas~ Woke up around 12 plus, accompany dear to the hospital for injection. He got 1 i got 4. Omg, can you imagine. Also met up with vamp and dear's mum for dinner, at sakae sushi. Then to my grandma house. A little chat there, ums. Dear and ah ma get along quite well oh. After that went prawning with my dear and his friend, Davin. At last i got 1! Hahas. Got total of 27 prawn. Something wrong with the psp. So i was thinking. Doom! I'll be bored till MAD. Lucky time past fast. Prawn keep going up. If not.. Lmao. Dear, cooked the prawn and we had a delicious supper. Fall asleep throught the way home. Posted some picture(: byeeee. Will update again.

BEFORE'AFTER.

BEFORE' AFTER.

♥ Same.

2009-09-22T09:16:00.000+08:00

Blogging time- Never go anywhere for two days already. He is going out today. I know he wun bring me along. So when he told me, i kept quiet. Just can't be bothered already ba. Is better to have someone love you than you love someone. For me, i guess i had put too much in it. I tried to give in but he trying to make the volcano to explode. Neglected all my friends. I'll start meeting you all soon alright. Wait for my calls. I'm not the Linda i use to be. Treating a person good doesn't gain anything, umps. But gain them for taking granted ba. When i really learn to love a person, thing will always start to get worst. When i am myself, They treat me like a princess. Why is it so difficult to let the both party to give in or just love each other. How am i going to maintain a relationship when only one for the party giving in always. Suan le, tomorrow will better, i hope so. Guess i have to had my dinner alone today.

8.12PM, Thats right. i got my dinner alone.

♥ CupCake.

2009-09-21T12:00:00.000+08:00

Well, never post for long. Of cause many thing had happen. Wanted to go science centre, but serene can't manage to wake up. Went out with serene(BAO BAO) and had lots of fun. Got the same watch together(: Okays, she dislike hello kitty. But for me.. Haas~ love her. Watched those movie with Jayson, Gamer yesterday. Went to choose photo also, everything is almost done. Meeting him for dinner soon. Soooo bored. p.s Boy i know you stress out cause of your work. I'm around alright. Dote me and not .. okays? i've done all i can. Really really hope we can be back like last time. Dear, can you give me back the love? posted picture for this few days. Back from dinner with him. 11:24PM had duck noodles. Yumyum. Let the picture speak for itself.

At B.B.

Superman&supergirl.

GAINT WEDDING CUPCAKE.

Oh~ So cute. Wanted to get one for dear but is from other country. Anyone knows where i can get cute cupcakes? I bet Jayson will love it. LOLS. he's a hungry ghost.

♥ Disappointed.

2009-09-12T15:00:00.000+08:00

why promise always meant to be broken?

Just got back from Boat Quay, gone for interview in the afternoon. Everthing was fine. But after Jayson abit of drinking. Thing went tough for me again. I don't wanna quarrel. For him, i quited pub. For him, i find job. For him, i change my temper. For him, i don't contact any guy, For him, he want cig i get it for him. For him, i've done all i can to please him. For me? Can't he sacrifice for me more. Does he know how disappointed am i when i heard what he told me. Saving money had to break our promise? What is our promise to you? A joke to make me happy? Last time, when i cry you will pamper me, now? Irritating to you isn't. I can't see myself standing in a very important position. Where have the Jayson gone to. What can i still say when i know you are going to break promise, one by one. So i decided to let you decide what you want. Don't ask me, cause i will be telling you the same thing from now on. 'Up to you, my dear' This broken heart you just broke will never recover. And I'm serious. Nobody like people to break promise, so do i(: I just love myself now. Continue tomorrow ba~ Goodnight.

♥ Boy.

2009-09-12T08:34:00.000+08:00

News. Is a boy!

Me, myself can't believe it. Damn happy when i knew it. Called my babe and told them bout it. Of cause, thay are happy for me too. To friend, really glad to have you all. Thanks. I'm okay already. Who is better or who love me truly i know myself. To someone, I know how much you love me. You have never change the love for me. Really thanks. Plus those message when he leave me alone. But... you know what i've got to say. Anw, for the photo's, had gone down couples of days. Even till now, not yet finish. Lmfao. Got changes, but in the end we choose the 12o photo's with the mastercopy. Hooray, i just want the mastercopy. For the money wise, super duper expensive. Can't imagine it. Thanks aunty(: (Jayson's mum) She paid for everything. For Jayson, I don't know wheather i'm still important. That's all. For me, I know what i want. Is just the period for time. Going Mustafa later, will be blogging soon. ADIYOS~

♥ Down.

2009-09-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

Goodmorning all. I can't sleep. I thought i will still have hope cause of the chat we had , before his mum msg me. I'm sure, yes super sure. He loved someone else. If not he wouldn't do this. I know him well. As for me, nothing is important already. Cause i've loose something that are most important in my life. Now, i really know how much he love me and how much he can give me happiness. Simple, If you really love that person that much even increasing day by day. Would you leave her alone just because money or work? And because you have no confidents? ANS, no. But he did. Confidents. Haa, Afterall he don't understand me well enough. If he really love me he woundn't have this idea and if he will think this in the first place i guess thing wouldn't turn out like that. So, i only can blame myself for trusting him too much. Loose the trust totally, every word he say now is scary. We go throught thing even more tougher before. So, I will never predict wrong. My smile and laughter will not be the same forever. Our love is weaker then i thought, worthless. 'Jayson, if you get to see this, i'll say the same thing. I love you. I never regret even till now. But baby and me will hate you.' Because of your confident. Especially me, I'm still living in this world. How am i going to... Having high fever already. Refuse to see doctor. Whats the point. Got to call for appointment now. 'cry'. Sorry guys can't write much. Noboby knows how im feeling now. bye.

♥ Final decision

2009-09-06T19:53:00.000+08:00

REPUBLISH.
So decision have been made. ENDED. Nothing more i need to say and i don't want to say too already. I never betrayed, end up, i dont get the trust too. A game? He is right. Can't imagine this guy that i wanted to spent my lifetime with will because of awful words and ... I want to go places that are beautiful. Bring him/her for the very last time. I will never forget how your heartbeat goes. Everyone(: I'm fine. Really. heehs. Everything cancel. Staying at home have to call and inform everyone. Taking passport tomorrow. Yeah! Finally man. That's all . Byeeeee~

♥ wtf

2009-09-06T13:33:00.000+08:00

SORROW.

Okays, blog time. Ums. Again. Don't know what yo said. Why he cannot just think the positive way. And why make things difficult for me. Isit so difficult to solve a thing? Already come to this stage le, still said this kind of thing. What he promise me. Never said it again. And now? Just because of misunderstanding. Is this the way you promise to give me happiness. Why all your word has turn out to a lie now? No matter what will go thru with me? So, all the while you are lying? Or wearing a mask to talk to me? All along, im still myself? You may not feel anything. But i do. Your mum, you really being unfair to me. Contacting other girl so important then me ma? Things happens not long. You have to slowly gain back my trust but instead? You already start complaining that you want contact girl. Put yourself in my shoes, if is me. Will you let me to keep msging other guy? And to be fair i never contact any other guy. Benny is you know de. What had happen to you? You wun avoid de. but now? question mark running thru mind. This and that. You are selffish, you never care for my feeling before. Im trying to hang on here, however you are trying to pull me down. Jayson, this time you really hurt me very badly. very.

♥ o-v-e-r.

2009-09-05T08:00:00.000+08:00

Life is a maze, love is a riddle, ♥

What am i doing. Seriously I don't know. Am i being brave. Sighs. Benny just called. Going out tonight. They want to go drink first. At dolphin. I don't wanna go. What if i see him there. Guess he can really relax and enjoy and not scare wheather will i be angry . Happy for him. Asked him this question, 'How much do you love me?' replied, isit still important. Step in my shoes and this isit still important. I'm seriously seriously disappointed in him. He know what i dont like and purposely do it. I got nothing to said. Pissed off. At least i know how much he really love me already. And even found out things that i don't know. He's a person who gave up things fast ba. (: Had to prepare le. byeeee~

❥his mine.

2009-08-30T17:36:00.000+08:00

Hey, my boy. Alot of difficulty we are facing right now. Hope we can go thru this path. Especially ... You should know who i mentioning, as she always said this can't or that can. Time fly fast, i'm sure we sure can do it. I love you. Whenever i'm having mood swing or having anger i'll tell myself, jayson love me. Things will be better oh. I hope you realise that i'm changing already. My love is real and so is my commitment, We're made for each other. Touched? Hahas.

Love you my pretty boy. I'll be always here for you.

Sorry for not blogging for so long. never went out. So nothing for me to to write. Last night went boat quay awhile. Then went to benny house for marjong with Ah an, Ah siao, Freddy and dear. Going out for movie soon, will be updating. Stay tuned.

❥Yucks.

2009-08-25T14:56:00.000+08:00

EWW, yucks. Really feel so disgusted after knowing what (unknown) has done. Pissed off, even (unknown) own sis thingy (unknown) can said to someone (unknown) seldom meet. I don't think what (unknown) had said is a small thing. Argh, (unknown) really have a big and smelly mouth. Pest. Nose-poker. Lols, I'm lucky, to not have a sis like her. Cheers! Okays, should post other thing before spoiling my mood.
Morning got photo taking. However evening time Ah girl, Mambo, Mr Ho and Mrs Ho went for movie. The Proposal. Great and loving movie. Touched. Before that we had sakae sushi. Mmm.. Then we went fusion to find Benny, Ah siao and Ah an. Joseph join after that. Slack there and reach home at about 3plus. Slept the whole day afternoon today. Dear bought me a hello kitty phone(: So much nicer than my older one.Thanks dear. I'm sorry. Things will still be the same. No changes. Btw, camera charging in progress. Photo will be post other day x)

❥Marriage.

2009-08-23T14:27:00.000+08:00

Women also marry men for nearly the same reasons. However, one important reason that women have in marriage is to escape from parents that they do not like or from a parent who is abusive. Sometimes, men also marry for this reason but the number is much lesser than women. So the reasons for a woman marrying a man can be enumerated as follows.
•Wish to escape from parents.
•Desire to have a lifetime companion.
•Love for the man.
•Having become pregnant by the man.
•To have a man having a similar career for easier adaptability.

Today, went prawning(: not bad. This time i never complain cause i'm enjoying too! We went for fish spa, it was my second time. Woah! They really ate our dead skin. I named them Xiao Hei(little backie) lmfao. Really enjoy it x)) I guess vamp&vivien too! Hahahs. vamp scare of fishie!

Here by, congrat serene(: Hope she take care of herself.

❥decision.

2009-08-22T14:56:00.000+08:00

Everyone thought im happy. But im not. Only me, myself know. Did he lied? Yes, he did. I think i've made my decision already. I hope i wun regret the decision i made. I dont want a guy who carry a mask and talk to me, i rather having ugly or poor but faithful and loyal ones. I believe i can do it this time. My friend, please surpport me. My sis, please stay by me. It only takes a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone & a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. Do not be afraid to discontinue a relationship if it is not satisfying you. AHH~ i really have enough. Anw, today i met up with kailing(: We went arcade, kinda pissed off cause of the rf4. Hahs. And meet renata for a while. END.

Btw, Happy Birthday Celeste(: kailing told me. ums, hope you enjoy your day.

Be brave, Goodnight everyone. byeeeee~

❥So wired

2009-08-21T13:00:00.001+08:00

Guys, don't worried about me. I'm fine. Thanks for all the concern. Especially that person(cannot be mention) and also found out something that i dont know for so long. I feel so warm after hearing. He message me already. But i feel kind of wired. Is the way he treating me wired. I guess. So insecured. I can't afford to loose him. Everyboby knows, does he know? How i wish everything can turn back. I'm just a burden to him i think. Feel like crying out everything. Will this makes me feel much more better? Noboby can understand me, i got so much to said to him. but.. i know thing will turn out worst. I'm tearing while writing. I just want thing to go smooth. I'm tired. I hope the trust is there. I really need more care.

I feel so alone. How i wish someone can really understand me.

❥upset.

2009-08-21T01:10:00.000+08:00

Sighs, things happen to sudden. And i really cannot believe it. Cant believe what i did yesterday. To him and to myself. Indeed our love really that weak. I destroyed everything with my own hand. Noboby is to be blame, but myself. I can't do anything now. Even if i beg, everything will still be the same. All i can do is only facing the fact. I'm always saying the other couple wun had happniess after marriage. 'smile' I'm wrong. Now i really bless the two couple. I'm all alone again. I waited for his message. Yes, he did message me, asked me to move all my things out of the house and return him his stuff. Wtf. I think he really make up his mind. I never put any hopes he will come back or read my blog. I'm not using this to make him come back. But i got no choice to write in here as i dont want people to know want really happen yeserday. Should i let go or should i not? I'm so hurt. And im too weak to move around. Can anyone tell me how to control temper? Boy, im really sorry. I'm still waiting for his message.

❥Goobye my happiness, goodbye my baby and good-bye my love.

❥past tense

2009-08-15T11:39:00.000+08:00

Movie that we watched the past few day.

Both are damn funny and cute!

I'm Loving It. Hmms, okays. think lots of thing happen the past few days. Lots of problem too. Bout ROM, MCYS and Invitation cards. Lucky the MCYS called me today and ask us to go for counseling. Watched this two movie with dear, Joseph and Jae. Okays, i really DO enjoy it and dear thanks. You kept your promise. Then blah blah blah ... We went home. intend to have ice cream buffer. Went to ION, damn lots of people. So changed our plan. Go eat another day. I always wanted a digital camera. Dear intend to buy for me after wedding as we had really spent alot in our wedding. So i agreed too. I asked my brother to buy. Know what? My mum told me he going to give me ang bao's(red packet) and buy myself. Yeppie! That day, okays i dont know which day already, but not long ago. bout 3 or 4 day ago. Dear and me planning to see the camera price. After his work he come fetch me. Went sim lim about 9plus proberly all shop had closed left only 1 or 2 shop. We went in and ask for pink colored camera. In the end i got black one. slim de(: And is dear bought for me de. Sweet right. He will always give me what i want. No matter how expensive how hard to get it he will always try his best to give me and not to make me sad. Stupid me still give him attitude that day. Anw, tomorrow i'm trying my gown. photo will be upload. (: excited. alright, end here.

For dear,

Thanks alot really. Rush back home always after you end work. Always plan to bring me out and not to make me bored and even you had a very tired day that day. I really appreciate what you have done for me. I love you. Remember? Till death make us part. We are going to the next chapter of our story. I'm really ready walk my lifetime with you. FOREVER"ONLY YOU.

❥LAZYY

2009-08-13T19:21:00.000+08:00

LAZYY-

Okays, honestly i'm really too lazy too blog. As also is very late already. Tomorrow is a long day for mLe. I'll update real soon, with also upload photo that i took few days ago(: Really had a great day with my sis and alAso vivien&vamp. Nice catching bear's with you all and also nice doing invitaition cards with my sis. Well, guess everything went smooth today. Alright, i'm real tired now. Goodnight to all. bye, Sugar dream.(:

❥lifeless day.

2009-08-10T03:18:00.001+08:00

Leaving in boredness. Never went out totally today. Stayed at dear's house whole day and watch NDP alone as dear is working. Turning around the bed. Even had dinner at home. Dear ordered hawaiian pizza. And teached me how to play blackshot. END. Tomorrow maybe meeting benny and gang for shesha or watch UP with dear, Joseph and Jae. Depends(...) Dear still playing blackshot. Think i'll sleep early tonight. Shag. Really have no idea of what to do now. SIANZATION. PLS, safe me from boredness, i'm really gonna go MA.D. Dear, neglecteds me. All in his head only blackshghot.
Sighs, alright. I shall stop here.

One last thing, i REALLY love my boyf alot. JAYSON HO is mine. Dear, i'm yours. I can't get my mind out of you. I miss you althought you are with me, i miss you more when you are away. you meant alot to me. Boy.

Goodnight to all(: Byeeeeeeee.

❥Happy National Day.

2009-08-09T14:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY(: TO ALL.

Well, HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY, Sinapore! And to each and every Singaporean. Okays, i know i'm LAME. But i got nothing to post today. So, BLAH. BLAH. BLAH.

The Pledge

We the citizens of Singapore

Pledge ourselves as one united people,

regardless of race, language or religion,

to build a democratic society,

based on justice and equality,

so as to achieve happiness, prosperity and

progrss of our nation.

Okays, Super duper long never said the pledge.

Nothing much today too. I finished the invitation cards ALL by myself(: Then went down IMM to find dear. Some went racing, some went party world, dear and me went home.

The meaning of real LOVE.
"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
"Love is when mummy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is ok."
"If you want to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."
"My boyf loves me more than anybody.You dont see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."

Cherish and treasure your loves one. Dont leave with regret. I regret ones before, and i dont wanna loose it again. I cherish him even more now. Dont take things for granted(: Bless all couple. And all the best to everyone'wink'

Now.., DEAR gimme a real big KISS! muacks. ohh, i love him till the MAX.

Alright ppl, enjoy the weekends. Goodnight.

❥lOVES movie.

2009-08-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

<33

MOVIE!

G.I.JOE

Went midnight movie 'just', with Joseph, Jae, Ah an, Ah siao, Benny, Mambo, Eden, Freddy and his Girlf. (Sorry don't know how to spell her name) Total 11 of us. Great movie! Damn exciting. "bang bang" But kinda pissed off with dear at first, cause he didn't told me what movie we will be watching. Grr, thought we are watching UP. hms, but he promised me to watch this few day. FORGIVEN(:
The rest went boat quay, dear and me went home as dear working tomorrow. Back home, Do alittle bit of our invitation cards. Plus get alittle bit of nagging from dear's mum. ...REN!!! Then TATAx) Off to bed now.

Longest movie ticket we had. Almost occupied the whole row.

Bye & Goodynight.

❥ICE CREAM DAY.

2009-08-06T17:36:00.000+08:00

B-O-R-E-D-!

Nothing much today. Stay at Jayson's house whole day long while waiting for him to finish work.After his work, he come and fetch me as we are meeting our Solemnizer to sign some form.(coffee shop) And also we had our dinner there. Meantime, we are also planing to go somewhere else.

Places that we plan to do/go.

Prawning
Marjong
Shesha
Find Vamp&Vivien

In the end we decided to find Vamp&Vivien at Ghim Moh. Dear and Me playing PSP while waiting for their ans, wheather they want to go prawning. (...) ANS, no. So when back with dear. Shopping at shop and save. Wanted to buy ice cream.(plus ic scoop) but he said is was too expensive. And wanted me to buy other ice cream which dont need to scoop. angries. I started my attitude on him and we both went back home. He come coax me and stuff but i didn't bothered. He went bathing and after coming out he wear his shirt and saying that he go down buy soap as is finished already. Chey. I tot he gg to buy my ICE CREAM! But, ums.. Okays, he really bought ice cream up and the scoop too[: I'm touched actually.

Dear, this really makes me know how much i meant to you. Thanks dear. I don't wanna loose you. Really feel so LOVEDD. I will be there for you too.

Ice cream dear bought de.

Having Mac with dear now, dear eat(: alright, i'll stop here. yawn.

GOODNIGHT.

❥My new blog, first post(:

2009-08-06T02:03:00.000+08:00

Firstly, thanks renata for helping up with my blog.
THANKS SIS.

Everyone, please tag me(:

Didn't really went out today, as my dear was working till 9.30pm.(bored)
When his back we went down for dinner together.

Back from our dinner[: oh, i just LOVE him.
Great, we both smell ****.

...His favorite past time(Blackshot)
Dear! lets go bath.

(: After shower. Both of us acting cute.

dear's mummy.

She's making milk for me. Thanks aunty.
AHHS~ yam yam.

Dear's mummy cut mango for us.(damn sour)
So we decided to play sissors, paper, stone and finish everything.

Linda WIN , Jayson LOSE.

We both LOVE each other ALOT.
We both MEANT ALOT to each other.
Bless us and not seperate us.

Thanks dear for being there for me always. Gain back my trust alright?
At last, we really can have our family. We really went thru so much. I will cherish you.
I hope you too alright.
JAYSON HO WEI JIE, im willing to spent my lifetime with you(:
I LOVE YOU.

OFF TO BED. night everyone.