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Goodmorning all. I can't sleep. I thought i will still have hope cause of the chat we had , before his mum msg me. I'm sure, yes super sure. He loved someone else. If not he wouldn't do this. I know him well. As for me, nothing is important already. Cause i've loose something that are most important in my life. Now, i really know how much he love me and how much he can give me happiness. Simple, If you really love that person that much even increasing day by day. Would you leave her alone just because money or work? And because you have no confidents? ANS, no. But he did. Confidents. Haa, Afterall he don't understand me well enough. If he really love me he woundn't have this idea and if he will think this in the first place i guess thing wouldn't turn out like that. So, i only can blame myself for trusting him too much. Loose the trust totally, every word he say now is scary. We go throught thing even more tougher before. So, I will never predict wrong. My smile and laughter will not be the same forever. Our love is weaker then i thought, worthless. 'Jayson, if you get to see this, i'll say the same thing. I love you. I never regret even till now. But baby and me will hate you.' Because of your confident. Especially me, I'm still living in this world. How am i going to... Having high fever already. Refuse to see doctor. Whats the point. Got to call for appointment now. 'cry'. Sorry guys can't write much. Noboby knows how im feeling now. bye.